My friend Randi mentioned mail as her love language, a point to which I can relate. I love the Christmas season when my mailbox is packed with cards. Just like Randi, I rush out daily to gather the goodies, and Gracie and I admire the cards and photos and read aloud the notes. (The boys don't really care.)
Today I got one that jingled my bells. (Dumb Christmas pun, I know, but I'm trying to stay upbeat. 'Tis the season, after all.)
Buried in the stack of mail today was a card from James' friend whose wife was due a week before me. In February, we four went to dinner and a concert together and she and I compared cravings and complaints over jalepenoed nachos with ooey-gooey cheese. In April, they came to Zachary's funeral and she cried in the bathroom while I made a public spectacle of myself. In August, they brought home a daughter and I dusted a baby-sized urn. In December, they sent a card with a picture of a fat, grinning baby and I want to throw up.
School has made it easy to stay busy and avoid all that should be and isn't. Now that I'm on that winter break, I have alot of time on my hands to sit around and feel pitiful. Woe, woe is me...
Friday, December 14, 2007
The Card
Posted by Amanda at 11:05 PM
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I am so sorry that you had to live that moment yesterday. I can so relate. That little one, as cute as she may be, will probably always bring painful twinges to your heart. I am sorry. I am sorry!
I am so sorry Amanda. The Christmas season holds so much joy and pain. Thank you for a nudge of reminders for us to hold close those who have lost much. Again, so very sorry.
Ouch. So many hard reminders of what isn't. Hope the Christmas season brings more good memories than bad ones.